~LiFe’S bReAtH~

Hello all. I hope u guys liked the previous post. I think its must be pretty alright. 2 comments!! ^_^ The best stuff i write are heartfelt. yay…

Okay, enter the idiocy of my life. Or rather, the things i do…

See, i’ve been having my midterm exam since two weeks ago. It started of alright till some where towards the second week, all the bio, physics and chemistry papers were put together. So last friday all i could think about was the coming DREADED week. I was also somewhat grateful for the weekends. Exams can be SOOOO stressful…

So on saturday, i woke up at around 9. The sun was shining and i was thinking how lovely it was to be able to sleep in late. Instinctively, i checked for msgs on my phone. ! msg from my neighbour:

"Hey, u not going to school today ah? I go first lo."

My brain clicked back and forth the sms n the NOW. School? Today? Saturday? I picked up my exam timetable dangling from the edge of my bed and sure enough…. at the last column of the page…

SABTU- EST

My mind froze. Time stopped. Then slowly the words formed in my mouth…"OH…….CRAP!!!"

So there it was. The story of how i FORGOT i had an exam. How i TOTALLY missed the exam. And how I friggin well could have scored an A on it with one eye shut!! Aaaarggh!! The infuriating-ness!! Joann!! You idiot! Idiot! IDIIIOOOT!!!

Fighting with the darkness,

pressing on for phantom dreams.

Dissipates in the air.

Taking me down.

To the ground.

Hearbreaking realization of things not meant to be.

Things that are not.

Things that never will.

Hopes on the unbalanced.

Crashes like waves on the mighty rocks.

Eating away bit by bit.

Stubborness of my heart.

Perhaps

Lack of humility.

I refuse to give in.

I should; but will not.

Looking for the answer

The reason

PURPOSE.

Parring with my foes,

You’re there.

Watching me.

Loving me.

Waiting for me to fall.

Waiting for me

To NEED you.

To need you desperately.

I do.

I need you desperately.

Place this passion in me.

Let me drive on in life for you.

I WILL find everything in you.

I need nothing more.

But first

I must let go.

Help me take the first step my Lord.

Touch me

And nothing will become more real than your touch.

Comfort me

I will need no other arms around me

Teach me

Discipline me

Be gentle with me

That i may be more like you.

Show me how to love

That i may love others

The way you love me.

That i may love you too.

Jesus,

Live in me.

Don’t ever forsake me.

Without you i am nothing.

I will surely die.

Break me free of this carapace.

Embrace me in your light.

Let me live the destiny u have made for me.

That one day

I may come home to you.

That you may call me faithful.

That i may finish this race.