~LiFe’S bReAtH~

"….yes, the Australian Property Company. I’m calling to confirm your reservation for 5pm tomorrow…?"

Wheeeeee……!! I went to work today! Haha… My very very first job! Cool huh? ;p

Im working at the JW Mariott. Its actually for 3 days only but the pay is good- RM12 per hour. Jerry intro’d me to it one. He said it was to give out fliers but when i went there today the lady told me to do registration instead and Siew Ping (my classmate who’s working with me as well) had to partner with this guy called Ernest to give out fliers. Hehe……… i kept teasing her abt him after that. xp

I started out totally blur and at loss of what to do. And the two guys i was working with werent exactly very outgoing… They kept talking to each other only and i would be bored to death. Yeeeesh. Finally at about 1pm, one of our bosses told us that we shd go grab lunch while the crowds werent pouring in yet. However only one person should go to ta pao, the other 2 need to man the desk. So Damian n Nicholas (d 2 blokes i work with) started talking lo (leaving me out again -.-"). They were like "what to eat wor the food around here so expensive." "The cheapest is McDonalds…." "McDonalds so far….."

So i cut in lo. I volunteered to go ta pao AND… for the first time that day they smiled at me. =.="""" Yeah yeah….MALE CHIVALRY…. So fast they take out their money to give to me…smiles still intact. what la…. (but not bad also la going to buy. Can stretch my legs a bit. I dont mind at all.)

Lol. So i went to buy food for them lo. It isnt that far actually. About 5 mins walk only wert. FAR kononnya… And on the way back Nicholas was waiting outside for me and managed to chat with him a bit. Damian isnt quite so friendly….he doesnt talk to me unless its BUSINESS. Cheh.

Hmm….so what did i do ah? Basically my job consists of getting the ppl to fill the forms before they enter and i hv to write their descriptions for them. Then i have to do filing, and calling also. Answering calls, giving out goody bags…everything from topping up credit on a handphone to peeling price tags off winebottles. I enjoyed myself, yep yep. Twas pretty fun. I hope I get to do registration again tmr. It sure beats going out and standing in the sun…

But unfortunately i missed drama practice. =( I tot we’d end at 6 but i went home only at 7.30. I mean no complains la but i HAD promised Grace i’d go for practice. Aiyaa..

Tmr Jason is giving briefing for Christmas drama also… aiyo. Now im wondering if i can make it. I hope so…

K la. Haha…this is a pretty boring post. I mean, work isnt all the most interesting thing in the world. Its…ADULT-LIKE. Yuck. XD

Muaxxx. Ta.

Oohhh…my poor achey-wakey feet!! Just came back awhile ago from job interviews. The first was at the hotel my mum works. Scary lar……the working hours are like 12 in the afternoon until 11 at night!! Plus its a chinese restaurant so have to learn how to set the table in a certain way, pour tea in a certain way, pour sauce in a certain way….all this has to be done QUICKLY, EFFICIENTLY and in HEELS. Oh my gosh…. I didnt even dare to ask about salary. Hehe…and my mum told the lady not to hire me. xp In a way, the job intrigues me. Challenge!! But hard le…. And i only get one day off in a week. Why adult life so sad one meh??

Then my friends told me they managed to get a job at one of the restaurants in The Pavilion. Japanese restaurant called Sakai Sushi. XD Okay la okay la… Its actually Sakae Sushi. Aiya, Sakai, Sakae….same thing. Hehe… The lady didnt ask much. Ask me to fill a form and ask when i can start. Hmm…..its 5 bucks an hour there. I also dunno oh now… Need to discuss with my parents.

And my dad is not happy abt me helping to sell souvenirs for RM25. SO LITTLE. My mum thinks so too. Like exploiting us. Lol. What to do…i promised d oh.

Aaahhhh!! Decisions, decisions, decisions!!! Tired…. Whole day walk around town, take monorail, take LRT…. *wail* My feet dying d la…. And in an hour plus Grace is gonna take me to dinner and briefing for the Subang thing. My dad is grumbling d…."Pay so little still want to brief this, brief that…." Makes sense also la what he says. xp Now need to tend to housework and Joy Joy… Boohooohoo…..

Tata.

Wheeeeeeeee!!!!!!!! SPM is over guys!! For me anyway!! You poor blokes out there with accounts or mandarin papers left, TOO BAD!!! Cos i’m already free!! Wakaka….. And for u small kichimeows who kept reminding me over n over abt spm (namely tuck seng, jia wei n william….) Hah, are u guys in for it….*snigger* What comes around goes around after all….

(Aiya, lost my train of thought there)

Oh yes. My plans. Mm…..for now, not much. Thinking of going out with Sarah, Darren and Wei Yee lo. Talking abt darren…tat fella… Lemme ask you, how many guys actually get to take out 2 girls out at the same time? Huh? U tell me, you tell me?? And he calls it a SACRIFICE!!! *choke blood* Can bring leng luis out still talk so much….ish ish ish….xp Guys out there can see how ungrateful he is hor? Hor? HOR?? Hehe….=)

And….lets see. Tomorrow im going to lookout point with jeanette and a few others for a job briefing. Going to sell souvenirs somewhere in Subang wor. One whole day and can only get 25 bucks. Thats kinda little la i guess but food and transport provided plus the dinner at lookout point so just go la. Mei Yee will be going also so i hv somebody to keep me company. Kinda nervous abt the job. I hope i dont have to go up to ppl and talk!! GAK! Noooooo…. I cant do stuff like tat. I shy la. Lol. SMALL GIRL mmg like tat one la. GROW UP!!!

K la. I’m going off to torture the neighbourhood dogs. How, you ask? Hehe…easy. My doggy is a very pretty female u see. *wink* And one of my favourite victims is this mongrel tied up at the guardhouse near my place. I stand opposite the road from him like 5 meters away with Joy while he whines pitifully for her affections. And me? I stand there and go "HAHAHAHA……" =p Its funny. Sometimes i let her go over to him so he can sniff her super magnetic scents (read sexy and alluring in dog language). He knows he cant mount her while i’m around because he’s tried once n i smacked him for it. So just watch him whimper and whine away…xp

i think Joy has caught the hang of the game too. Cos whenevr she sees him she becomes super excited n lopes off to meet him but whenever he tries to smell her or become to affectionate, she leaps out of reach leaving the poor fellow looking sad and pathetic. *beams* Thats my darling. =)

K la guys. I’m off!!

I adjusted my collar and felt my name tag and badge clink gently at my left breast pocket. The grey skirt clung gently to my thighs and a smile etched on my face as i heard those familiar words…."WOMAN!"

Heyo all!! Yestreday I had my moral paper so it ended at 10 .30 and i went to Time Square to meet up with Sarah. Haha…call it sentimental, i decided to wear my old Stella Maris uniform to go out with her. I put on my red name tag and even my ASST. MONITOR badge. Lol. That badge always makes me laugh thinking of the time my friends stole it and colored off the "T" so it read ASS MONITOR. I didnt notice when i put it on….I was the ass for a whole day. XD Good times, good times…

I watched Mr. Magorium’s Magic Emporium at TSquare. Lovely show! For adults who’ve forgotten what it was like to believe in magic and for those who are starting to be suffocated by reality, =) this is the show. I loved it!! It made me cry and smile and laugh…fantastic! My favourite quote from the show is this: Its not the words "He dies." that makes you sad. Its the life that you saw prior to those words. =) Nice nice nice…. Umm, the words arent exactly like that i think. More or less that meaning la. I wanted to watch Stardust actually…but it wasnt on wor. I think its off already. -.-"" SIGH. Fine. I’ll watch Beowulf on Tuesday. Hmph.

OH, btw, my spm isnt actually over. (Yeah i know, i still look as relaxed as ever but come on. SPM isnt an occasion to subject oneself to isolation and self-misery u know…) xp I still have Biology as my last subject on Monday. Cool init? ^_^ Bio is not really a big problem for me so im not so freaky freaky stressed. Yosh! One more subject to blast off!! Wheeeee!!!

Muaxx loves!

I choose my words carefully as i say this. I think…that…its very very possible…that i will pass my add maths. *breaks into a smile* =)

Add maths was today and golly…it was much easier than the trials! I mean, not to say that i’ll get an A or B but i’ll pass!! Thats a huge deal to me seeing as i’ve only passed once in two years. Thank you God!! ^^

Oh! And today something really ugly happened. *grimace* There’s this teacher in my school whom my friends really dislike. I never really felt that way abt her cos she doesnt teach me so i never knew anything abt her except (according to my friends) she has a horrible attitude. My friends totally hate her cos they say she talks to students like she’s talking to animals. I didnt really bother until TODAY.

I made another blunder today by forgetting my calculator. (sheesh…) And for add maths, the calculator is an EXTREMELY essential item. Like me, most students use the 570 model. Many hv a 350 model as an extra, but the 350 has a lot of functions less compared to the 570. So i asked my friends if they had an extra 570. LOTS of them only had a 350 to lend me so i decided to ask this teacher. (Her name is Pn. Chew btw. *hiss*!!)

So Pn. Chew went off to get a box of spare calculators lo. Then she handed me a calculator and got me to fill a form. The calculator she lent me was a 350 so i asked her if she had a 570. Mind you, i asked her really politely. No impatience, no aggravation, NOTHING. Her reaction??

She scolded me.

Scold also nevermind u know. I’m not so ‘xiu hei’. But the way she said it.. She said this: "EH, u never bring calculator still ask for this ask for that! Huh?? I lend u one then just take la! Ask so much! If you dont want then give me back!"

I was shocked and the shock melted quickly into anger. I tried to explain to her that the 570 is different and tat i could easily borrow a 350 from my friends but she cut me off without even listening! She said, "U dont talk or ask so much. I lend you already still like that. What kind of attitude…(pulling another teacher over to tell her of my ‘rotten’ behaviour) Just say thank you and go!! (pointing a finger at me)"

OH MY……….!!

Can you believe her??

I walked into the exam hall with tears of fury brimming in my eyes. My friends were shocked. She’s horrid!!! Nasty!!! Bitchy also… Yeesh! Maybe u wont feel the effect so much reading it here but aaaarrghh!! Can u imagine that? It was early in the morning, 3 minutes before exam, not expecting such an outburst for NO valid reason whatsoever! What is her problem??

Im boiling now.

BYE.

Bang bang!!! And down goes mathematics. =)

Oo yeahh….four down, six more to go.

This will be a short post; not much to say (not like you guys comment anyway….*grumble*, is anyone even reading this?? Heaven knows….)

Btw, I have touched down on my 100th comment. Yay! ^^

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I just watched Paul Potts sing Nessun Dorma on some website. It was his first performance….and….gosh, it was absolutely incredible. You could see the emotion in his eyes and how it affected the audience. You could sense his passion and the insecurity and nervousness that vanished from his face when he sang…Oh Lord! I think the best part was the look of joy and surprise when he finished and everyone gave him a standing ovation; one of the judges had tears in her eyes! He didnt realise how amazing his voice was! I think that was the most fantastic part: those ppl building him up and him realizing that he was someone talented. =)

Do check this out!

http://www.maniacworld.com/Phone-Salesman-Amazes-Crowd.html

It will render you breathless!

Ta!

Day 2. (English paper1,2 and History2)

The morning was cool, serene and i braced myself as i walked up to my usual bunch of friends. "Halo!" I greeted them in my sweetest, most unprovocative voice. An innocent smile hung on my amiable face. Friend number one looks up with a glare and proceeds to ignore me. Friend number two gives me a hmph and returns to sulking at her literature reference book.  Friend number three (the slightly meeker one) is about to say something when friend number four cuts in and huffs "Bu yao cai ta. (ignore her)….hmph."

*sigh*

Haha….if u think my friends are usually so unsociable, they aren’t. In fact, most mornings I’m greeted with smiles and shrieks of "halo sa poh!! (hello, crazy woman!" (Umm, sa poh is like, an affectionate namesake. Lol. Go figure.)

HOWEVER. Incidences of sultry-ness towards me happens ALLTHE TIME during our english exams. -oo-"" SIGH. Haha… They basically get really annoyed that i dont study for english. Pretending to borrow a reference book from them to spark a truce doesnt help either. All i will get is a huffy "YOU need to study one meh?" Lol lol lol…..They’re so funny. Rofl…

Anyway, english was alright.

History…….was NOT.

It was so incredibly….i dunno how to say.

At the end of the test, the only gesture me n my friends gave each other was a shake of the head, accompanied with a sigh. A haggard and slightly haunted look hung in our eyes. YES, it was that awful.

BUT I’M SO GLAD ITS OVER!!! No more sejarah! Whoooo!!!!

Now i can burn that nasty text book! Blast it into smithereens and toss it to the ends of the earth!!! *delirious, maniacal laugh*

Ahem. No wait, i can’t do that. I need to sell my text books. Darn. Haha….ah well. Thats all for today. Love u guys. Bye…!

PS: Any form 4 science stream students wanna buy 2nd hand form 5 text books for half price please call me okie. All in good condition (looks brand new really…err, except my sejarah text book. xp ah well, i’d throw it in for free if u want. Haha..)

Do u smell that? =) Thats the scent of freedom. FOURTEEN days away. Haha…yes! I made it through day one!

I was nervous last night. Basically to the point of freaking out. And it was weird cos the people i thought would always be there for me suddenly became….non-existent. Haha….(okay. I need to stop doing hollow laughs). Erm, it didnt feel good i guess…. Yeah, it felt, lonely. BUT, a lot of people i didnt know cared for me sent their regards and prayers. (T.T) Thanks guys…u have no idea how much u helped.

Cheh, look at me. I sound like everything is completely over. Hehe…

Ok ok. Ahem. You guys want me to do story mode today? Good practice for English tmr. Lets count this as REVISION. *switch*

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Vrrr…..Click. My hand stopped the alarm on my phone even before it begun. I had awoken 10 minutes before. Staring at the ceiling. I blink a few more times before taking a deep breath; i slid out from the warm covers. Welcome November 12…

And so the day began. The BIG day. SPM! After all the countdowns and naggings and teasings….it was here. After getting dressed, packing all my things and double checking to make sure i had brought my IC and slip, I headed for my mum’s car….

*Eh, boring la. Dont write in story form can or not…? Lazy. Hehe.*

ANYWAY. Today i was almost late for the exam. -.-" No i didnt forget i had spm. Me, my mum n my sis were on the way to the car when my sister started bawling. *roll eyes* She said she hadnt done her homework during the weekends (n who’s fault is that..?). So she refused to go to school until she finished it. Geez….!! Cannot believe her… Can u imagine how cranky you’d be if u were me? I’m having spm for heavens sake!! SPM!!! Its a BIG deal remember??

Thankfully i made it at exactly 7.30 (my dad pulled jan’s ears and asked her to do her homework in the car. Thank God, no, dont feel sorry for her. She’s been playing and playing during the weekend. Serves her rite. Yes, I’m mean).

So paper 1 for BM began. It was…not as easy as i thought. But still managed to crap here and there. Sejarah objective paper was ok too. I could do half. Hehe…the form 4 half basically cos its so much more interesting compared to the form 5 one which i struggle to read. BM 2 was a challenge as usual. Lots of writing to do. Its like racing the clock. Worse, i was feeling sleepy. Hehe. Nah, i managed to finish in time dont worry dont worry…. =) Erm, it was pretty almost on the edge of teetering into HARD. But not yet la. I hope I get an A1…dunno can or not. please please please…. 

Thats all for todays report. =)

See, i didnt screw up for this exam!! (well…….forgetting to bring pencil box doesnt count right? xp yeah, i forgot….Lol)

Tata loves!

Six days to SPM…. Hmm. Nah don’t wanna talk about spm. Tired of hearing those three letters over n over. Bleugh…

Yesterday was my last day at PESS. Hurrah! Took a lot of pics n vids with my friends. Uploaded them on my profile d. *check them out, some are pretty hilarious*

Ahem. Well, today was a thinking day for me. I did a lot of thinking, contemplating (waa…like so DEEP only…xp). I haven’t been having time to myself lately so u can say this was…err, i dunno how to explain. Important? Was assesing myslef, thinking of recent happenings, analyzing my feelings, sorting out thoughts, planning incoming events…basically all the stuff emo ppl need to do to prevent themselves from going mad. Lol. Thinking too much is always a depressing thing for me (go figure) but it was kinda good la. Prayed about it, asked God to correct me, strenghten me. I think i’ve been behaving badly these few days. Need to check myself.

Gah. Depressing. N the really dumb thing is i really dont wanna open up to anyone. Don’t know why………… But i can handle it. So dont ask. *fierce, proud look*   =I CAN=

When i’m alone the world is such a different place,

Sometimes its hard to keep the smile upon my face.

Seems like i try so hard and still i let You down.

Its taken so long but now there’s one thing that i’ve found…

When everything starts crashing down,

When all i know falls to the ground.

When darkness comes and i can’t see,

You’re always there to rescue me.

When all my strength has turned to fear,

When i wonder if You’re near,

When I dont know how to break free,

You’re always there to rescue me.

Just when i think that i have got it figured out,

You opened my eyes and let me see that there’s no doubt,

That You’ve got it all within the power of Your hand,

Seems like the more i know the less i understand.

When everything starts crashing down,

When all i know falls to the ground.

When darkness comes and i can’t see,

You’re always there to rescue me.

When all my strength has turned to fear,

When i wonder if You’re near,

When I dont know how to break free,

You’re always there to rescue me.

I wonder if i’ll make it thru this darkest night,

I need to know Your strength in me’s gonna win this fight,

I’m reaching out wont You take my hand draw me to the light,

I know You’re by my side…

-Planet Shakers-

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This song has always been an encouragement to me. Thought i might share it.

Take care loves.

Sway. The wind touched her face gently; Dancing with the stray tenderils of hair that framed her face. Hands clutched at her chest. Lips part at a sigh. The sky was not so much so dark anymore; A blue-ish gray. The air smelled wet; Clean grass. Were things starting to get better? Could it be? Was her heart finally ready to be free…?  The small hands gripped tighter. Eyes looked towards the heavens. If so, why the apprehension? Was it so difficult to let in something new? She closed her eyes as sunlight broke through the clouds and kissed her face. She welcomed the warmth with arms wide. The breeze embraced her slight frame, carressing her skin; tenderly almost lovingly. She suddenly opens her eyes and checks herself. The temptation to open up, to give in, to fall in love was sweet, enticing. Being held, being cherished once more… These touched her with a longing. The face that she held in mind was slightly blurred. Like an old painting worn away. She searched her heart, the secret corners that were now quiet; waiting. Eyes widen in sudden surprise when she felt….nothing. Not the pangs of anguish, loneliness or even longing. And with this realization she felt something different. She was frightened.

The girl sat on the grass, hugging her knees. The new stranger. He had made her smile. Made her laugh. More than that, he made her want to give in. To let go of the old, embrace the new. The notion was intensely welcoming. She whispered a prayer to the Spirit, asking wisdom, asking protection of the heart. The answer came swiftly and she nodded, almost regrettably. The God had other plans for her. Not this. Love was not His plan for her right now. She could not love the stranger. It would be foolishness. He could not possibly love her as well.

She got up and brushed love grass off from her skirt. Then, unexpectedly, memory of the old painting came. Along with the hurt that had so often gripped her heart.

And she was glad.

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Haha…abstract rantings of a mind. Well, not too abstract. Can u understand the story? …..or too boring to read at all?…Cih, comments r lessening again. But its ok. Writing should be for my enjoyment. Its a bonus if others enjoy it as well. Still still still…

I wanna know what u guys tot of this story. Please?