~LiFe’S bReAtH~

The choices i make now,

Are defined by my past.

And what i make of the now,

Will someday become my future.

Memories are never useless.

They remind us of the roads we have taken,

The times we fell,

The times we soared.

Failures are great teachers;

They hurt, but serve as a necessity so that mistakes are not repeated.

They bring us down so that we might see loving hands carry us up.

They create emptiness that we might appreciate joy.

They break us so that we can be molded for the better.

Paintings cannot be erased,

Neither does the canvas say to the Artist:

"Your colours are wrong. Paint me another way…"

The Master Creator’s strokes are perfect, deliberate and defined.

In time, the painting becomes a myriad of colours,

Brilliant. Intense. Beautiful. Breath-taking.

And isn’t that worth it all?

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This isn’t a fantastic poem, i know. But its kind of a response to Wei Yee’s cos i dont really agree with hers… Check ours out and comment please.

~Tq~

I found my thumbdrive and keys!! They’re back!!!!

Wakakakakaka…..

*continues shrieking like a banshee*

=)))))))) Ecstatically happy d! Thank you Lord!!

Lord please, why are You allowing things to fall so hard on me?? The past few days were GREAT. I never felt happier in this six months. With the new job, jinjang outreach, practices, time spent with church friends…it was fantastic and suddenly problems seem to come crashing down on me! Lord…where are my keys…?? You KNOW why they’re important to me!! My thumb drive!! Lord….!! Some kid stole my whole pencil box on monday, taking my highlighter along and now i lose my keys?? Why are You letting this happen?? These few things are the little things left to remind me tat wat happened was real…..! Why take them from me? Please, give them back! If You want me to remove them You have but to tell me! Dont just snatch them from me like this! I will dispose of these things i love so much if You ask me to, you have but to SAY it. I will do it!! But dont steal them from me like this!! Lord please…..give them back to me ok…? If You want me to get rid of them after tat i will, but dont take it away just like tat without warning… I completely submit myself to You… You are First, i hv already made tat decision. Please, dont lead me into testing. Just having made this decision was difficult enough. Sometimes I really feel tat this step i took is too insignificant to You; this step tat is costing me more than i can bear. Lord, have mercy on me. I am weak, i am imperfect. But i love You and i want to serve You. I want a close relationship with You. But with all this things happening, I cant focus! Sometimes i really feel You unfair. I feel tat You love him more than You love me. Either tat or You made him with a heart of stone. I think You made me out of jelly, tats why im wobbly and unstable. Either way, its wrong for me to expect him to suffer (he clearly isnt anyway. He cant fool me.) Lord, take away this bitterness i feel for him. I never even knew it was there till yesterday i suddenly felt so deceived, so hurt, so angry towards him. Right now, things seem so overbearing, overwhelming and unending. I need You. Not just now, but every single second of my life. I’m dependent on You… n im at an all time low now. =(

Still, thank You for the blessings You have given me in the last week. My job, oppurtunities to serve You, to make friends even while workking till 1am, getting closer to church ppl. I know this is Your way of loving me and showing that You’re watching over me.

Lord, please….my keys and thumbdrive. I want them back. =(

Aaaaahhh!!! Work woork work and work!! I slept at 1.30 am yesterday cos i had to prepare the booklet for my english class. Aiks. I didn’t even work THIS HARD for spm. I reached home today at 4.30 at collapsed in bed. I didnt wake up until 3 hours later. Then i had to feed my dog and i spent an hour watching TV. And NOW, I have to prepare for tomorrow’s lesson… =l i dont even feel like eating dinner. *sigh*

So this is what working feels like….

I mean, i’m not complaining. My pay is good. Working hours are short. I’m just not used to this i guess. Once i get the hang of this, i’ll be fine. Yes, yes yes….i can do this!

This saturday i’ll be going to some sort of outreach thing in jinjang. Thats me, grace, felix, peggy, cal, john and i cant remember who else. We’ll be performing the Everything Lifehouse Skit. Its really really touching honestly. I still feel it eventhough i’ve watched it like, more than 5 times. LOVE IT!! I really hope that thru our performance we’ll be able to touch the lives of the ppl who watch it, that God will minister to them.

Aiyoooo…..i’m still trying to figure out how to get my students to STOP SPEAKING KOREAN in class!!! Seriously la. Everytime i turn my back, they’ll be at it again, chattering happily. When i remind them to speak in english, they’ll be deathly quiet. HOW??? Ideas?? I only have 3 students btw. They’re all girls aged 10 and 11. How to get them to speak in english le…. how how how??? Help!!

At least my situation isnt so bad….Justin (who’s replacing Jane while she’s in Philipines) is teaching the kindergarden group. Poor him wei…haha….they hardly understand english so most of the time he’s like talking to himself and REALLy…..the kids are SO NAUGHTY. Not exagerating! The kick and punch each other and totally ignores him when he asks them to stop. Once, they even locked him out of the classroom. >.< Hehe… Poor fella.

My students are nicer. Sweeter, more demure. Basicaly like little Korean angels. xp U know what they wrote on the board for me? "Teacher is berry pretty." ^^ Ahaha…..they were so shocked when i told them i was seventeen. They thought i was like, twenty. But dang it la!!! How to get them to speak ENGLISH??????

Hello all….I’ve started my NEW job. I’m working at a Korean Language Centre near Ampang Point. I tell you, I am ABSOLUTELY so grateful for all the blessings I’ve come across. This job is not difficult for me since i’m only teaching english. I work from Monday to Friday only, 10am-4pm. So saturdays n sundays are free for church activities! And if you think the pay is crummy since working hours are short, think again. My pay is RM1200 a month. Nice huh? So blessed, I can’t contain it… So much i’ve gotta...*AHEM*. xp

I think my blog is becoming so horribly boring wei since spm began. Its all ADULT STUFF. Working and things like that. Eee…. To be honest i haven’t actually felt the crazy urge to go out also. In fact the weird thing is I’m pretty contented to be working. And with the drama and cantata practices…i feel really fulfilled lo. Which is like…..the first time in my life ever to feel this way. Its this satisfaction and sense of purpose that calms me. I’m happy. ^^ …and really, maybe things may be boring but i am so so so blessed. All the job oppurtunities and chances to serve him…..its just so incredible.

More than i could hope or dream of

You have poured Your favour on me

One day in the house of God is,

Better than a thousand days in the world…

So blessed! I can’t contain it

So much i’ve gotta give it away.

Your love, has taught me to live now

You are, MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ME!!